New Understanding

Throughout my course studies thus far, I've learned many new and important concepts in the world of business and accounting. It has definitely been an exciting and informative ride. The preciseness of it all, the laws, how ethics play such an important role, the numbers (oh, how I love the numbers!), and the basic fundamentals of how every step has a counter step. There are no sidesteps, no room for error, and certainly no room for goofing around. My studies have definitely become a second full time job for me!

Throughout all of this I am coming to realize that a good portion of the accounting principles I've been taught in the 'real world' thus far are wrong, or seriously outdated and don't necessarily follow GAAP procedures. Not that they aren't accepted practices for a good portion of the small business community, they just aren't generally accepted throughout Corporate America.

Someday, I hope to leave this small company I have called home for the last 17 years and discover me in a different world. A world were family ties don't affect business. A world where things can and MUST be done by the book. A world where I have an education and the knowledge and understanding that come with that. A world where I am heard.

I see now that not only have I been taught against most commonly accepted practices, but my voice has been squelched for much too long. I am a prisoner of my family ties. I am held captive by my fears of 'rocking the boat'. I am suppressed against calling out and forcing right to have it's say. I have trekked on for too many years just accepting and never making a difference. I see now how I and my family have suffered personally for all of this. I have found a new determination within me to somehow someway change all these circumstances. I don't know how yet but I know the path that will lead me there is through my continued education.

I WILL persevere. I WILL find the light at the end of the tunnel. And damn it I WILL come out the other side better off for it!

Random Thoughts...

... from my first day on these 'wonderful' diet pills ....

• Gosh I hope these work this time
• It's really hot in here
• I think I could burn calories while sleeping right now
• Wish someone would bid on some of my eBay items
• I think my insides are gonna switch places with my outsides
• wonder if my ramblings are coherent
• would they let me leave work to go run circles around the building?
• is it 5 o'clock yet?
• my children are strange ... hey ... I'm just sayin'
• I think I could pick up my car and spin it like a baton.
• I know if I were home my house would be clean ...
• why couldn't I have started these on a day I was gonna be at home?
• it's 2 o'clock in the afternoon and I'm STILL not hungry
• depression hurts. who does depression hurt? everyone. where does depression hurt? everywhere.
• I think it's the little blue specks that do it.
• bet hubby's glad I'm blogging instead of rambling on and on to him like I have most of the day!
• feels like a good day to WALK home ....
• haha, anyone want to guess how far my house is from work?
• I'm a little afraid of these wearing off ...
• It might hurt when I fall over wherever I'm standing.
• Is it time to go yet?
• Hope the boys win the tournaments
• Oh no! ... that's tonight.
• Why do I always crave cigarettes when I'm taking diet pills?
• How can I not be hungry and my sugar hasn't dropped all day?
• That guys motorcycle is really loud and annoying.
• Wish we could leave here already.
• Anybody got a jump rope?
• running in place ... can't beat it
• Is it 5 o'clock yet? ... yes I know I asked that one already.
• Wish we could take a vacation this year.
• sure is pretty (and hot) outside
• visited all my usual online spots and still nothing to do
• this would be a good time to clean the office wouldn't it?

Okay, okay, I'll stop already! Sorry for boring you all with my randomness today but it feels like a random kind of day for me.